Now that I'm in my 30s, I'm finally beginning to understand when people say you start to feel more comfortable in your own skin once you hit 30. And I'm beginning to give myself permission to know that it's ok to go after my dreams even if I'm scared. The truth of the matter is is that I'm deeply unhappy working for other people and in my current job and I have been since I started back in 2001. Don't get me wrong: while I'm happy to have an income and count myself very lucky that I have a job right now when others are unemployed and struggling, I know that I've been putting off being creative in lieu of what I've trained myself to be: practical and efficient.
And it's killing me.
The good news is that lately I've been running across people's stories that remind me that I already know deep down what I need to do. And the beautiful thing is I don't have to wait for other people to tell me what I already know or look to someone else to have all the answers. Because the truth of the matter is, no one does--no matter how much I or anyone else might wish it.
So what am I going to be focusing on in this little online haven? This blog is going to be all about how I'm becoming a different, new person and learning to trust myself in the process. I'm going to be trying a lot of different things and seeing if they stick. Like photography of people, nature, graffiti, etc. Writing about where I'm at in my head and giving myself advice (hopefully it will help other people, too). Showing some ideas for t-shirts and art projects that involve interviewing other people (gaining the "wisdom of the crowd" is definitely something I'm interested in).
So I'm glad you stopped by and I hope you'll stick around for my journey, because we're all in this together :)
Photo: Sunrise over the Columbia River near the Washington-Oregon Border. 05/1973